Circumstances

Sometimes I wish it’s that easy to forget the past or even certain people in it. Not really forget, but avoid as much as possible. Don’t you just wish that sometimes too? You’ve moved on for real… finally, you’re in that place where you can say that you’re really okay now… but your past is still trying to keep up with you and bring you back to that place you’ve tried so hard to escape from. You don’t like being rude to people but sometimes, because you don’t want to go back to that “place” you tend to say things that may sound rude or uncaring. And then you hate yourself for feeling guilty about it too.

The thing is, sometimes circumstances don’t allow us to be friends with everyone, or the people we want. Do you agree? It sucks, but that’s reality. After all, you’re not the only two people in this world. There are other people or other feelings that you have to take into consideration. It’s just not the same anymore. And we have to make that conscious decision and stand by it. No use being swayed. Or else, everything will be for naught.

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Hold Your Head Up High

Very inspirational song.

P.S. I´m sorry for not posting for so long. Lost track and I have to find back to myself.

I miss you so much

No words I write can ever say
How much I miss you every day.
As time goes by, the loneliness grows;
How I miss you, nobody knows!
I think of you in silence,
I often speak your name,
But all I have are memories
And photos in a frame.
No one knows my sorrow,
No one sees me weep,
But the love I have for you
Is in my heart to keep.
I've never stopped loving you
I'm sure I never will;
Deep inside my heart,
You are with me still.
Heartaches in this world are many
But mine is worse than any.
My heart still aches as I whisper low,
'I need you and I miss you so.'
The things we feel so deeply
Are often the hardest to say,
But I just can't keep quiet any more,
So I'll tell you anyway.
There is a place in my heart
That no one else can fill;
I love you so,
And I always will.

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1 Thousand Tears

On the day you left me
I cried 1000 tears
For each tear I cried
There was a word to be said
No tears were enough
To make you see what you were doing
No words were enough
To stop this pain
As the tear drops fell
So you walked out the door
As the hurt increased
I faded more into the misery pit
On the day you left me
I cried 1000 tears
Those tears were not good enough for you
Now you are gone


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...

where i’ve been is a puzzle
pieces missing, people missing
& i’ve been lost
too busy to stop & gps
& everyone’s wondering
where my heads at
whisper,whisper - is he crazy?
STOP - i’ve been dealing with a lot - simple talk.
where i’ve been or where i was
it’s all the same thing to me…a fog, a mist
see if i can take a minute to explain
a minute to articulate…
I’ve been working 60 plus a week w/ no pay
i was choking down antidepressants 4 years straight
i was broken down, she left me for him - hate
i’ve been lying to myself, lying to my friends- i’m fake
i was lied to & ripped off by employers - a$$holes
i was making up for something else, ego out of control
i’ve been on the verge of a dream - hollywood
i was given a honest chance and f*cked up my stance
i’ve been drinking.
i was reading, i was dreaming, i had a plan
i’ve been trying to put it together - a man
i was too wishful & i was stupid
i’ve been wondering if they knew this
i’ve been dealing with so much
i was stuck, could not express - it
i was wondering if it could get worse…it did
i’ve been ignoring an issue for years
she’s was hurting, she was waiting
I was receiving text messages at noon - her mom
“i’ve been at the hospital, she’s in a coma - your fault”
I was devastated, I pained, I was….nothing can really explain
i’ve been carrying that one on my chest, how could I have explained.
where i’ve been lately has been a mess
& i’m not alone, the whole world knows this pain- in these times
we go through these moment alone, we go through these moments together
they challenge our truths, our honesty & they challenge our demands
& i’m going forth with the power of my last name, i have my demands
& i demand a new road, i demand a second chance
i demand more from myself & i demand myself to rise - above
…where i’ve been.

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puzzle pieces

pieces, people, things
they do not seem...
to fit

mixed up and scattered
reaching and seeking
the perfect fit

bliss in a mist
anger directed...
at a small space

again & again
all night long
nights and days
years it appears

still hoping, still going
trying to fit
the pieces together

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Remember The Eleventh of September

Remember, Remember
The Eleventh of September,
The year: Two thousand and one
Never forget the day
That we lost
And they won

Four airliners
Flying at hundred miles per hour
At the hands of self-proclaimed martyrs
Became weapons of mass destruction

People died
That should have lived
Some as heroes, most were victims
Robbed of what could have been


Remember, Remember
The Eleventh of September,
The year: Two thousand and one
Never forget the day,
How we all felt
Not only the horror
Or our justified anger
But how we came together
As one nation
Transformed

Although there had been plenty of warning beforehand
Of the threat that was Usama Bin Laden
Our failure to stop the plot in its tracks
That showed how vulnerable we were to attack
We took the blow
And bounced right back!

A commission followed
There were talks, reprimands and apologies
Leading to the conclusion:
‘Failure to communicate! ’
After which we vowed
Never to repeat the mistake


Remember, Remember
The Eleventh of September,
The year: Two thousand and one
Never forget the day,
The week, the world
Joined us in mourning;
Showing we were not alone.
Unity of effort and unity of purpose
Is how we will prevail
Against those who wish us woe
Everywhere
Never forget
The resolve of iron of our nation
The strength we have in our allies
Remember
Not only the loss
But what is yet to be won


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